Scadalous/ Monday, August 1
todae's main thing was..went to east coast to eat and such..time flew..and soon it was abt 8pm..i was standing on the beach..looking far opposite me where the bright city stood..my surroundings were all black..til i could hardly see wad's around me..when i look up into the sky..i see the grey grey sky (wasn't exactly black u see)..dere were one or 2 stars hanging in the sky..and i juz stood dere..feeling the wind hit across my face..and smoothes my hair..i tot and tot..when will mine cum? and is he sumwhere out dere..juz waiting fer me..maybe our paths had cross too early..maybe fate had brought us close too fast..maybe everything is happening at the speed of lightening..and perhaps.. we're juz nv meant to be..i've lost my brightest star tonite..and my brightest star may juz evolve into a shooting star..g0Nee.. and under this lovely nite..even before the clear blue sky..i see ur face..i noe u miss ur mum..i noe u miss ur dad..i noe u miss ur frenz around u..and u noe..tt we misses u too..times are so difficult to pass juz missing u..u can see us sad..even when we smile..u can see it all in our eyes..i'm alwaes on the move..and the harder i try not to think..de more it backfires on me..and the shoulder u used to lend..is juz gonee with u..and who will enbrace me with his warmth..and tell me dun cry..my heart is so broken..i haven felt this wae fer long..de tot of tmr's trip to holland's swensens sinks me..and sadly..i juz lost the foto of us dere..i believe u took it awae to lessen my pain...my heart cries..my soul bleeds..cum back to us..wun u? i've realli bad mood swings nowadaes..cuz i constantly see u in the sky..i constantly feel ur smile..and i feel u around me..hug me tight..and let me feel u're here with me..speak to me..and tell me u see us..on this special dae of mine..wun u let me juz dream of u..and wish me a happie 18th birthdae..
indulgence in the wee hrs 0f..
12:20:00 AM
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